Good Things

I just had to post it, the first day of school picture:


Kinda Bright Out Here, Mama

I used to listen to a certain song over and over during the early stages of my pregnancy with the little V-meister – Good Things by the Bodeans.

In the hyper-vigilant state that is the first trimester of a first pregnancy, the threat of miscarriage was always a looming cloud over my head. A worrier by nature, I impatiently counted the days until the second trimester began, thinking that I could then relax and enjoy smooth sailing.

I didn't realize that there would always be a new worry to replace the old: childbirth itself, the threat of SIDS, an unquartered grape, an unattended pool.

I see now that this list goes on and on, but at the time my biggest concern was that the tiny life I carried would choose to stick around.

The song was my mantra:

No, no, no,
Don’t pass me over.
No, no, no.
Don’t pass me by.
See, I can see good things for you and I.
Good things for you and I.

It's this song that came to mind as I drove Vija to school for the first time today, and the thing that uncorked the tears I had been sure would not flow.

Hey, Vija, Vija.

There's good things yet for you and I!

Thanks for sticking with me, little bean.

Myliu,
Mama